Tomorrow is the Fourth of July and I'll be alone.  With the twins.  Again. I really really hate that Tim misses all of these holidays and that I don't have any really close, close friends or family here.  It makes it so hard. Ugh.  It's been so freaking hot lately too and that just makes it harder to have the kids outside for very long periods of time.


I'm trying to decide if I should bring them to the parade(s) or not tomorrow.  We live in this city and I need to start doing more with them in town.  I need to get out of this crazy down slump I've been in and be out and about more with my kids.


I feel like all I do is whine anymore.  Poor, poor me.  Well shit...how do I stop?  This is not how I want my marriage to be.  I want to BE with my husband and have him home with his family.  It just really sucks.